When an author puts themself out into the world, whether it be for submissions, to a new reader, or just to a family member, our biggest fear is rejection--they won't like it. And seriously, it's the worst thing that we can do. Fear is powerful. It has a way of breaking down a mindset.
I remember the first query I sent out. I thought I'd nailed it and that the agent was going to be so happy that I sent it to them. Then the rejection came. Then the second agent rejected it. After about twenty of these "No" responses, I began to doubt my story. Myself. My idea of publishing.
The doubt led to fear. Fear that I'd never be good enough to publish. I wasted several months on fear before I finally just gave in. I'd been sitting at my computer crying one day when my husband found me. Of course, when he asked what was wrong, I couldn't tell him. I'm the strong one in the family. The person that keeps everything together. If I told him of all my doubts and fears, he'd surely find my weakness.
He wouldn't take, "Nothing." for an answer, and I finally caved. This is what he told me. "Rachel, you have spent months pouring over books, reading and learning. You don't take no for an answer, ever. I know you. This is not you. You are great at story telling. I've been following your story (he meant my twisted way of seeing the world) since the day we met. It's what keeps us going. You do not give up. You're better than that."
And you know what he was right. Three days after that conversation, I pitched and sold my book. It's a mindset, this fear and doubt. But once you choose to lose the fear and doubt, and decide to be positive that you can do anything, life will change. Opportunities will open up and the world will finally make sense.
At least, that's my story. :) If you had a moment in life that you kicked fear in the pants, please share! Who knows, you might help someone out in the process.
Rachel’s writing career began at the impressionable age of twelve with a poem dedicated to the soldiers of Desert Storm. A dark macabre affair that earned her a publication in an anthology and many raised eyebrows from family and friends, she hid her poetry and artistic style for years…
Tucked away in the heart of Central Texas, with the loving support of her husband and three children, she dusted the cobwebs from her craft. Returning to those twisted regions of her mind, she creates romance that devastates...because that's the only true way to love.
True Love Devastates